2.22.2012

Say Goodbye.

This past weekend, 
we said goodbye to our house. 
I know it's silly to get attached to bricks and mortar, but I can't help but feel a little bit emotional.

Will and I began our forever in that house.
I'll never forget:
 coming home from our honeymoon,
and settling into our new little abode
as happy newlyweds.

Will and I brought Hudson home from the hospital to that house.
I'll never forget:
those first special days with him, 
holding him non-stop
and enjoying our brand new family of three.

This is the only home our little boy has ever known.
He crawled there, cried there, laughed there, and played there.
He took his first steps there,
wobbling on chubby legs, back and forth on the hardwood floors.
Every first he's ever had
(from birth to 2 1/2)
 has been there.

As the days passed, and we faced the final hours in our first home,
we took the time to say goodbye to the place that has brought us so many happy memories.
Hudson and I spent some extra time in his nursery,
memorizing every inch.
 The reality hit me that this special room
will soon be just a fading memory for him.
But I will always remember it as my favorite spot in the house.
The room that I worked so hard to make perfect before Hudson arrived.
The room where I spent countless sleepless nights rocking my tiny baby.
The room that I couldn't wait to get into every morning...because I knew I'd see a little smiling angel waiting for me in his crib.


 
Saying goodbye to our house was hard.
I really did love it...
even though it had really tiny closets.
I've cried about leaving.
A lot.
And I'm not sure Hudson really understood exactly what was happening as we started packing up all of our life in cardboard boxes. 
But I told him the best way I knew how...
that we were going to get a new house and it was going to be lots of fun.
I had a feeling it wasn't really sinking in.
Then one day, out of the blue, as I gave him a bath he put his little hands in the air and said,
"but Mama, I going to miss ours house."
And then I cried a little bit more.

Now that it's all over and done,
and I've dealt with the bulk of my emotions,
I'm feeling excited.
I can't wait to see what kind of memories we make 
in our next house.

41 comments:

Michelle P said...

awww so sad! I was sad when we moved out of our first house.

Gentri said...

AW! :( I'm sorry you had to say goodbye to your old house. But I'm sure this new house will be filled with even more memories! I'd love for you to share it with us after you're all moved in!

Shauna Klippel said...

Ashley, this is a sweet and heart felt post. Great pictures of course and bitter sweet I'm sure.

I don't think I've been following enough to know where you are going or what's taking you.

Good luck with everything. Take care,


Shauna

Lisa N. said...

Congrats!! I didn't even know that you sold your house - or bought a new one! Can't wait to hear details! :) Excited for y'all!

Katie said...

oh what a bittersweet time in your life. I always think about houses that I have lived in before and sometimes wish I could go back just to sit and think back at all the wonderful memories.
But I like that you have a positive outlook on this! You will make so many beautiful memories at your new house :) good luck!

Lula said...

congrats on your new home!

Faith said...

I have a feeling that is how I am going to feel too when we leave our first home, even though it has has tiny closets :) Congrats on your new home and making tons of new memories!

Alaythea said...

I kinda felt that way when we moved from our little townhouse to where we are living now. Our first home together as a married couple was in AL but our little town house was where we brought Gi home from the hospital, she learned to crawl, walk and talk there so leaving was hard. We are moving again in June and I'm ok with it because were we are living now doesn't really feel like "ours". I'm ready to settle into some place better. Good luck with your new home, I'm sure you'll fall in love and be so happy there! Can't wait to see pics!

Virginie said...

I totally understand you, moving is SO hard! Luckily we get to bring all the special memories with and keep them safe in our hearts forever.

Moving also symbolizes a new phase of our life and I'm sure the new home will se a lot of happy events and many many firsts to come for little Hudson :)

Thinking of you extra lots my friend!

Virginie ♥

Amanda said...

Sending you lots of hugs and love! I would be so sad too! But I know you'll make some new wonderful memories in your next house :) Here if you need a virtual shoulder to cry on!

Annie said...

This is such a sweet post! I can only imagine how sad it would be to move out of a house that has so many memories - I know when my parents sell the house I grew up in I'm going to be a BIG cry baby! But at least you get to make new memories in a new place (and decorate it) :)

Annie
The Other Side of Gray

Susan said...

Thanks for the cry, I needed it today. Such a sweet post and you'll make all kinds of new memories in your new home!

A Moveing Family Man said...

This move has been allot harder than I thought it would be. I have been looking forward to the next chapter with our family. Then it all hit me when I took the final walk through of our house. It all started when I walked into Hudson's room. Seeing his tree on the wall. The one you worked so hard on to get his room ready. All of the laughs we had. Looking into the backyard and remembering some of the parties we had. Looking where the dinning room table once set with all our wedding gifts pilled on top. Working in the yard and looking back and seeing Hudson pushing his little lawn mower behind me. So many great memories but you know that there are just going to be so many more to come. We came into it as newlyweds. We came into it as new parents. Now we are leaving for a new home as a family.

LOVE YOU!!!

My Journey With Candida said...

Just from reading your blog, I can tell you are a glass half full kind of girl. You always find the good in things so you will be fine, but you already know that.

Enjoy your new home!! Can't wait to see pictures of it.

Shannon @ Bungalow960 said...

I have a feeling that I will cry for hours on end when I have to leave my bungalow. Even if I am moving on to bigger and better things. There's just something about your first house. Hope your move went well!

Natasha said...

You are obviously meant to be a writer...somehow I found myself getting emotional over what you were saying :)
I'm sure you will make many more fantastic memories in your new home!

Hop, skip and jump said...

Oh this is really sweet. I got very sentimental about leaving places too... even when I'm leaving for a positive reason

Jenna@The Life of the Wife said...

Seriously such a beautifully written post! It's so sad to move on from all those sweet places in your house! But you'll always have the memories! And you'll make lots of new ones! Congrats on your new adventure!

Jenna

Amber said...

I think I would have cried a bit too. You become attached to your home especially when you've had so many firsts. Hope your new place brings you many more great memories.

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Mariel Torres said...

This was a very emotional post... kinda reminded me of how I felt when we moved from Puerto Rico to come to the states. I felt as if a piece of my heart was left behind. But don't worry Ashley, you guys will make the best of memories at your new place, you'll see.

Kisses!

Meredith said...

i know the feeling...when we moved across the U.S. a couple years ago, i was an emotional wreck. it's not just a house you leave behind, it's a home, complete with memories and good times. i memorized every carpet stain, every door nob, every window before we left.

but now that we've moved, i love our new house! it's a fresh start. i'm sure you'll love your new house, & love making into a cozy home for you're sweet family.
prayers & good wishes to you for the move!
i hope all goes well!

Kylie said...

that is exciting. change is always good, despite the hard parts. a home would be great - i'm a bit jealous, still living in apartments ;)

Melanie said...

Awwww... my heart goes out to you guys. I'm sure your new home has so many wonderful memories just waiting for you all to unfold! Such a lovely post Ashley! Xo

Jackie said...

Completely understandable for you to be sad :( I wish you many more happy memories in your new home! XO

Jillian {The Absurd Bird} said...

Beautifully written and beautifully felt. I shed a tear for your family with you. I know that I will be the same way when we eventually have to leave our home for one with bigger closets.

P.S.
Your husband's comment didn't help stop the crying. :)

Mr. Taylor and his Lady said...

aw, i'm about to leave our first little "home" together here soon too. i think it is perfectly acceptable to be emotionally attached to all the memories. can't wait to see what beautiful memories will come next in your new home :)
xo TJ

Courtney B said...

We were living in a small, apartment style condo. We had the most inconsiderate upstairs neighbors EVER. But I miss it so much! Or maybe I just miss the feeling of contentment I had there. I was very comfortable and I had so many friends in the neighborhood. Maybe that's what I miss. But I totally understand how you get attached!
I hope you guys are able to settle in real fast and that you fall in love with your new home :)

Meri said...

I love talking to my nieces about their first house (my sisters last house) to see how much they remember. Its so funny the stuff that kids remember-they were pretty little when they moved!

Chelsea said...

Homes hold so many memories- congrats on your new place! prayers for a smooth transition and moving process!

Candice said...

Aww this is heartbreaking!! What a special and bitter sweet time for you guys! But I am sure your next home will be loved just as much :)

Cara-Mia said...

I don't think it is silly at all to feel attached to a house - I get attached to even smaller things because I add so much sentimentality to things. This IS an exciting time for you though. Plus you get to decorate a new space! :)

Shea said...

What a sweet post! I'm sure it's hard to leave the home you made so many memories in! I'm sure you'll make wonderful memories in your new home too! I've never been sad to leave an apartment, but now that we own our first home, I know it will be bittersweet when we eventually move.

Sandy Joe said...

At least you will always have the memories! What an exciting time for you!

x The Pretty Secrets

jessica said...

Aw, leaving is sad! And it's so sad to see Hudson's sad little face! But you are SO right, your all's new house will hold new memories! And you will still always have the old memories even if you don't have the house :)

misc.alaina said...

This is a beautiful ode to your home! I am so happy for you guys that your house sold and you can move forward to your next home! I can't wait to see what is next for you!

Lynn {hearted girl} said...

oh boy, that is a bittersweet journey hey?! just looking at the photos and the memories that were made there gave my heart pangs from memories of leaving home myself. much different for you because this was the house where Hudson's been growing up but i can completely empathize with this time in your life. new normals are always a bit of a hard go but you're right about making those next ones happiest. many blessings to you lovely and your wonderful family!!! xo ♥

Haley K said...

Oh Ashley...what a bitter sweet time for you and your beautiful little family. Reading your tender account of such sweet memories made my heart smile! But I can only imagine how hard it would be to leave the home that housed the first years of your marriage and raising your son. And you made it so beautiful!

We feel blessed to be in our home and we're slowly but surely making it our own, but I catch myself complaining about certain things (like the erratic heating, the odd smelling basement, etc.) and this sweet post reminds me to appreciate it more! I need to treasure every moment we have here...such incredible memories and events and milestones happen in between these walls. Thank you for the reminder.

And those photos of Hudson on the couch...so precious :)

Haley K said...

oh and what an exciting adventure you're about ready to have in a new place though!! hope the move goes smooth friend :)

Liz said...

This was such a sweet post!
I'm moving back to Texas soon, and just yesterday, I was driving down the street to my house, and thinking about how in a few months I'll be in a new place. And eventually I'll have kids and drive them down that very street and point out the places that their mommy and daddy went before they had children...
I got a little misty over the thought...
Anyway, I completely relate!

Katie said...

it is sad to leave somewhere that has so many memories. thank goodness for pictures! wishing you a smooth transition into your new place!

Kira said...

I totally cried my eyes out when we left our first house too. Even though I was moving on to something bigger and better, it was still hard to leave our first home.